#1046 - Russ - Can Ambitious People Ever Have Balance?

You were talking about work life balance and your Yeah. Inability to have that. Yeah. Man, I mean, balance is just it's a luxury now. It's a privilege. You can't have it on the way up. It just has to be full 100% commitment to the grind. So now I'm trying to have more balance, but the guilt is there, you know, still. Like, it's just that PTSD Mhmm. Of, like, I shouldn't be relaxing right now. You know? It's a difficult question to work out. You know, almost everybody's on the come up. But by design, very few people make it or have made it. Yeah. Right? There's way more people that want to be there than are there. And that means, first off, that it's a sort of an icky situation because the total addressable market for people who need to learn how to put their take their foot off the gas is basically zero, and the total addressable market for people that could do with working harder to achieve their dreams is still pretty high. But, a good question to ask yourself is, okay. Let's say that you achieve the things that you want to achieve. You get to where you're supposed to get to. Yeah. What then? That is Then what do you do? That has been beating my ass for, like, two years, that question. Because here's kind of, like, how I thought about it. Is the thing I'm scared of now is not having a horizon. You know? Because in the past, my present self was not my future self. There was a huge gap between who I was and who I wanted to become. In that gap, the distance is what birthed the hunger and the velocity. Mhmm. You know? And now my present self is my past's future self. Like, the gap has collapsed. So the hunger has nowhere, like, obvious to point. And it's scary because, you know, it's not really a fear of complacency. It's a fear of, like, directional ambiguity. You know what I mean? And, you know, kinda to touch on what you said where the market for people trying to get here versus people who are here, it's obviously huge, but a huge difference. But the engine that was driving me, and I think drives most people at the beginning, is here's this person that I wanna become, that I can imagine. And that engine works until you arrive. And most people never arrive, so they never have to confront this. But, like, high achievers have to confront it, and it's just honest. You know? And so now it's trying to figure out, like, not necessarily the new dream, but sort of like relocalizing the hunger, trying to find a new domain for it. I think that's why, to be honest, therapy has been so activating for me and interesting because the ambition, like, moved houses to this internal landscape where I can, like, attack the internal …